Vegananuary

So how is my month going?

I will be honest and admit I’ve had some slip ups, okay a fair few 😦

  • I ate some quorn products coz I had them in the freezer.
  • Iv’e had a bottle of procecco.
  • I drank some capachino sachets to finish them off.
  • I ate a chicken dinner at my mates house not last weekend, but the weekend before.

and I had a really bad day on the 18th and binged and ate meat 😦 but I’m super proud of myself because I got right back on track the very next day. You see I was having a crappy week with 2 sick kids and cooped up in the house and yeah I just fell apart slightly. But considering my past and the ‘oh fuck it I’ve messed up’ attitude I used to have getting back on track the next day is amazing progress for me because usually it would be weeks or months!

Oh and I literally just ate a bag of sweet potato chips and I thought they would be okay and I was half way through the pack and was like oh I best look at the ingredient and fuck me there is milk in them 😦

Let’s have a look at what I have been buying and eating:

Cauldrons chickpea fafallals with a baby leaf spinach salad.

Tescos super grain mix pot with Singapore rice noodles and baby leaf spinach and vegi bites chorizo style prices.

Tescos mixed wild and white rice vegetable frozen microwaved steamed rice with baby leaf spinach and a mixed bean pie (came in a black.box from morrisons I’ve forgotten the name of it)

Frozen steamed vegetables the microwave kind with the vbites chorizo style prices, baby leaf spinach and a sauce I can’t remember 😦

The sage and onion style prices were actually pretty good but the wraps was a bit dry and hard.

This one I tried the Calderon spiced tofu prices and oh my days I was so worried abut tasting it but it was sooooo good 🙂

This was a bit nutty for my liking but I loved the vanilla ones.

This sucked.

The free from moose x2 yogurts sucked and so did the crisps.

Veggie pie again. Note to self don’t burn it 😦

Singapore rice noodles with peppers, super grain pot and free from pesto and spiced tofu.

Yesterday I ate out for the first time this month and had flat bread and Jamaican hot pot which was amazing! This is another big change for our family as we can go out for dinner up to about four times a week!

Today I added free from pesto and tomato mix and it was good.

Lost half an stone 🙂

So I can’t say hey I’m doing brilliantly at this, but I am happy that I am giving it a bloody good go and I am actually enjoying myself! However this is a TRANSITION so with my personality type I’m just not going to be one of these people who can switch easily!

I strongly believe I will be plant based from now on with a 90% vegan diet with the odd thing here and there such as if my son brings home something from nursery I’ll eat it, I’m not going to be “Oh sorry I’m vegan” to my 2 year old and you know those special occasions going to birthday parties and that I’ll have a nibble on cake and I will have my capachino sachets because they are like my little treat unless there is a vegan alternative.

Going Vegan these days is pretty easy, there are so many alternative products available and many foods that are “Accidentally vegan” like Tescos own bourbon biscuits which I wish I never found out because I’ve been like eating packets of them 😦

I’m not going to be mean at myself about my slip ups, O’m going to congratulate the many changes I have done and am doing and that I am evolving step by step.

Love and light, Torri. x

 

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Loving veggie

Somehow this time round I just feel so good about being veggie, I just feel that I am actually ready this time to make the transition. I feel strong about the fact I’m helping that little bit to save the animals and have re watched earthlings  (I hadn’t realized I has watched it before, some time ago and I had the same reaction of pain) I watched cowspiracy again on Netflix  (I watched it last summer also) I couldn’t finish watching it both times to be truefull as it was a little boring but i.got the meme. So I watched vegan 2016 on YouTube and the short version of forks over knives which I both liked.

Considering my weight I’m actually the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life due to this Christmas blow out shitty ass diet. I feel terrible about myself. At the moment I’m just trying to change what I eat into a vegetarian and vegan version where possible and then I will tweak my diet persey to get it as clean and vegan as I possibly can.

So here is some of the food ive been eating.

This is literally what I’ve eaten which is marksandsparks rice Singapore noodles with m&s tender stem broccoli, carrots and sugar snap peas with 2 morrisons faffalfas mixed with gluten free soy sauce. It was sweet and tasty.

I ate this yesterday with mango chunks at my mates house while she did my hair for me. It was tasty.

Yesterday’s evening meal was a houmous, free from pesto with baby spinach and Watercress Wrap. I also had a soya vanilla yogurt, free from ice cream too.

The day before that was m&s singapore rice noodles with morrisons stir fry veg the edemee bean one with tammarI sauce plus I had a vanilla soya yogurt, free from ice cream too.

I’ve been walking 1-2 miles a day.

I’m going to go on my.treadmill in a min for about 15 mins for the first time before I collect my son from nursery.

I just feel really good about being veggie, I’m saying veggie as I do believe that I will be continuing now being vegetarian not just on the veganuary which admit ally a couple of things have slipped through such as quorn and prosecco. But we are early days and I’m happy that I’m really trying and slowly improving myself and transitioning to vegetarian.

Torri.

Vegan Victoria

In January I attempted the “Veganrary challenge”as I want to improve my lifestyle, eat healthier and switch back to my veganism.

In 2007 I was Vegan for around a year, the problem I had was that I knew nothing about veganism or knew anyone who was vegan to help with my transition. I was also suffering from a serious eating disorder at the time, so of course I did see this as a bit of a weight loss method as it would get me out of eating a lot of products.

Turns out it was incredibly difficult for me with my raging eating disorder to keep to a vegan diet and in my binges I would eat anything and everything and throw it back up again which unfortunately could be several times a day. I wasn’t a very good vegan, I’d forget at times because my mind was so “food, food, food, feed me!” since I was fasting, and restricting to eating under 800 calories a day or eating only 200-300 calories daily. My brain wasn’t functioning very well and it didn’t occur to me that veganism was a lifestyle rather than a diet choice, I knew a bit but not enough to warrant me an logical informed change of lifestyle.

When I went into rehab to get better from my Eating disorder in 2008, I was forced to eat meat and then told that it would benefit me from being a carnivore, so I converted to a pestecerian diet of eating only chicken and fish and this lasted until 2010 when I fell pregnant and craved meat floured food. I listened to my body and thought that I needed to listen to it and went back to meat eating.

6 years later and in a much better place mentally, I feel I am ready to go back to my vegan lifestyle and this is truly what I want and not a ploy for my eating disorder although that is what Emma believed. I have witnessed first hand abuse to animals living with my abusive step father and it wasn’t simply about my eating disorder its within me.

Of course me, being me I can’t simply just fucking do something so I understand that this for me is a process, a mighty long process so here is my story and wish to change.

I shall discuss my taste tests in my next blog entry, love and light Torri.